just dont know the reason

ive asked this q's many times to many....but i just cant find the answer...
the reason why im writing in a blog.....
why i have a blog for that matter...
entahlah....maybe following the flow....
ive thought of the visions why i still need to write.... eventhough i hv not that much time
no laptop..whatevr whatevr....but
entah
i knew im not good at writing current issues
so i tried in a story sort of way...
stillll........ entahlah
i wanted to write things about me....
but...entahlah......
i want my blog to be a place where one can get something from it...
i want my blog to make people laugh or cry...
entahlah.....
i guess im just not good enough.....
i try to pick up good things in my life..but i feel....
entahlah....inferior maybe...